The Great Awakening : WHY?

Even my parents-in-law, who are from that generation that OBEYED orders from above, can see what is going on now.

They, too, have lost all faith in government and “news” and society as it is now.

The Great Awakening has many layers. There were those of us who always questioned authority. Even when I served as a teenager in H.M. Forces I had this innate knowledge that respect is EARNED not given just because y’all went to Sandhurst and had shiny decorations on your shoulders.

Then there are those who gave birth to the “truth” community. They have uncovered so much, so many lies………..!

Now we have a new wave of WOKE people who see right through the “truth” community…. and so many new lies!

But, much like those whom these Truthers denigrate and verbally spit upon, this same community is STILL incapable of taking account for what they have done. I.E. Trodden the same path as those they proclaim to despise.

There is no real love there. Just numbers – subs, views, videos produced, followers, believers (Hallelujah) and ways that y’all can make donations.

They are now being seen for what they truly are. And people like me – who questioned them years ago – are now Banned. Dead. Hidden. Abused. Threatened. Humiliated.


But y’all CANNOT stop those who come behind us and question. And debunk. And disbelieve. And need answers.



If not me or those of my ilk – there will always be others demanding answers that these truthers can never confront.


I’m Scottish. We do NOT kiss arse. We confront and challenge and operate under the Divine Law of TOUGH LOVE.


Can you survive or are YOU the weakest link?

These Are The Contents of MY head :o)


I’ve spent more than 4 years watching this stuff and all I’ve learned is….

A RESET happened (dates and contemporary evidence unknown)

A population was destroyed (dates and reasons and contemporary evidence unknown)

A new population came in from underground (dates, reasons, location and contemporary evidence unknown)

All BIGGER THAN A BOX buildings were built by an older world (dates, reasons, wherewithal, contemporary evidence unknown)

A mud flood happened (dates, reasons, specific locations, contemporary evidence unknown)

Some kind of slitty eyed reptiles took over mankind dates, (reasons, wherewithal, contemporary evidence unknown)

We were all made shorter than 30 or more feet tall (dates, reasons, wherewithal, contemporary evidence unknown)

The sun and the moon are fake and just man-made reflections of the earth (ditto)

The pyramids contain extraordinary powers (ditto)

A GREAT FLOOD wiped out most of the known world (ditto)

All photographs in the entirety of photographic history have been vanilla’d (faked) …… ditto all previous dittos.

There is NO HISTORY AT ALL before 1850 even though my own family have traced us back to the 1500’s (I’ve gone ditto mad)

God Does NOT EXIST anymore – he’s been kicked out by The They Them ELITE CONTROLLERS. (see above dittos)

I’m not picking on the girl in the video below. She’s done exactly what she was programmed to do. And made a great case for her Tartaria lesson to every single person who has access to youtube.

She is one amongst MANY.

Hey. I work alone and own this blog – So I’m allowed FREE SPEECH HERE!


Surrounded by CHARMERS

THE Charmer…

The Charmer was a 1987 British television serial set in the 1930s, and starring Nigel Havers as Ralph Ernest Gorse, a seducing conman, Rosemary Leach as Joan Plumleigh-Bruce, a smitten victim widow and Bernard Hepton as Donald Stimpson, Plumleigh-Bruce’s would-be beau, who vengefully pursues Gorse after he has conned her.

I remember watching the whole series. Very enlightening!

I KNOW a SNAKE when I come across one.

They are also called KARMICS.

Karmics come into our lives to teach a necessary but extremely CRUEL lesson.

You have to thank them for the warning that cobras ARE poisonous. And it’s quite daft to ever go near another one.


We Are ALL Doomed!

I swear to God that Frazer was a deeply entrenched Scottish Presbyterian.

Dour….rhymes with sewer.

I grew up with these Dour….rhymes with sewer…family members. My mother was afraid of NO-ONE. Except Lily. My paternal grandmother. Mum admitted that to me several times.

Me, myself & I am/are (?) more of an Epicurean.

Eat. Drink. And be Merry. For tomorrow we die.

I KNOW this to be true. In real life. My Mum was there one day. Gone the next.

You can be the healthiest, fittest, most sober, most select person in the whole world but get on a bike or in a car or on a plane or walk down the street and it’s……Oh. Pearly Gates, eh? Hi, St. Peter. WTF am I doing here?

Never go to bed on an argument with loved ones. NEVER disrespect/denigrate/deny/dispose of dearly loved ones.

Talking of FEY. I was living in Ulster with an 18 month old and newly pregnant when an urge came upon me to go home. I HAD to go home. No hindsight here. My Mum and I had been estranged for over a year with no contact but -still – this feeling was strong. I KNEW that it would be the last time that I’d see someone in the family. I thought it was Nan (Nana-Anne as my boys called her.)

So I went home for a week. Told my parents that they were going to have their second grandchild in 7 months.

6 weeks later my Mum died very suddenly.

Don’t be an egotistical/I’m always right/what the eff do you know? arse.

We are ALL Doomed :o)

P.S. Frazer was also an undertaker in the show!

Alternate World History : The Man in the High Castle

You don’t need to read this to understand me.

So we have an alternate history now. Written by, videoed by, shared by, vlogged by, a small number of people who have made such an impact on so many minds via the W.W.WEB that I, personally, absolutely feel/think/believe there can and will be no reparations.

Ego and money took over TRUTH and sanity.

Just because a few historical dates and circumstances were (almost =99.99999% = definitely) changed – we are now being taught by unqualified teachers that ALL HISTORY IS A LIE.

I was told the other day in a live chat WITH ABSOLUTE CONVICTION that the pyramids of Egypt had been submerged by “The Flood” for 300 years.

I left that “fact” hanging and contained my disbelief.

What so many seem to ignore is that NOW, this time, is about 400 years after the manipulation of history first began. How many generations of pupils have come and gone since then? How many teachers? How many books written?

Historians today are NOT stupid or evil or thick as pig shit. They just repeat what they’ve been taught. Without question.

We are in a whole new era of equivocation and dissimulation.

Were there not Japanese soldiers found who had no idea that the War had ended ?

Are there not youtube alt history viewers who have no idea that they are being conned?

Even PKD could not write a sequel to this book. He’d had enough of fascism!

a political system headed by a dictator in which the government (or youtube) controls business and labor and opposition is not permitted.

Built In Obsolescence

The video below made me cry towards the end.

It triggered two very recent conversations.

A member of the family has dementia. She is 96. Lives alone in Cornwell and her only surviving relative (her son, my brother-in-law) gets weekly phone calls from the local Cornish police. The last call was to tell him that his Mum had made one too many 999 calls, claiming that there was a ghost in her house who kept putting strange food in the microwave.

My brother-in-law has to drop everything, drive nearly 3 hours and see to his Mum.

Then, on my birthday, BFF and I have a wonderful 3 hour long conversation on the phone. Her Dad is now living with her, her husband and her three grown up children because he’s alone and has dementia.

I’ve known Nick since I was 11 years old. An RAF Squadron Leader who flew fighter jets and could outwit EVERYONE with his quick mind.

Karen asked if I’d like to talk to her Dad. So I did. For ages. Bless his heart. He remembered EXACTLY who I was :o)

I have so much research – decades of it – stored on kaput computers that are built to die. But I also have photographs, objets d’art, child drawings, letters, cards, jewellery, clothing, stones, seashells…a hundred thousand million MEMORIES of my life.

Our attic has sealed boxes filled with my sons’ childhood favourite things.

That minimalist living lark never struck a chord. We are humans and NEED tangibles to bring back memories.

Tiggy is a bit of a “whatnot” here. Until she breaks down.

There is always a line that needs to be drawn.

BTW – who INVENTED dementia? The cruelest of all suffering.

Why Are They Calling Themselves Alchemist?

The Harry Potter/JK Rowling generation have latched on to Nicolas Flamel – THE MOST FAMOUS ALCHEMIST.

Do they KNOW what alchemy is? Lead to Gold or Poison to Profit?

Alchemy is a spiritual journey. Like Adam from dust or Eve from a rib.

It’s intensely personal.

The Heiros Gamas anyone?


Now we get into more fiction via Dan Brown.

Flamel was not an alchemist as such. That title was given to him centuries after his death.

The Sacred Marriage IS the joining of male and female. But the first marriage HAS to an internal one.

NewsFlash : Men CAN cry. Women CAN throw a decent right hook. When these two sides of one person get together then they find gold.

When two people who have found this “Philosopher’s Stone” get together – they find all the riches in the world.


You want to go that route – Bon Voyage and much love.

Flamel then the Heiros Gamas……Without EGO.

The Balance of Power

“A heretic is not the one who burns at the stake but the one who lights it.”

It’s so bloody boring reading so many people BLAME everyone else for this life.

Hordes of historical people were burned at the stake for “perceived” HERESY.

Those burned challenged what we now call “the elite”/”the powers that be”/”the controllers etc.

HERESY is :  Derived from Ancient Greek haíresis (αἵρεσις), the English heresy originally meant “choice” or “thing chosen”. However, it came to mean the “party, or school, of a man’s choice”, and also referred to that process whereby a young person would examine various philosophies to determine how to live.

We are the choices we make. And when we CHOOSE to place all the power in a totalitarian entity – we give up our divinity and humanity.

Yes. Life can be shit. Only entitled and precious people expect to live a life full of unicorns and candyfloss.

We are all facing Hard Times. We can blame and whine and whinge and suffer OR we can adapt and learn and thrive with the pure and undefeatable knowledge that a “GOOD LIFE” is one where we care for/love/look after/laugh with/hug/stand by/respect/HONOUR every single wonderful moment we share with those we love.

It is called SURVIVAL.

And the Human Spirit IS a survivor that can never be killed unless we let it happen.

Here endeth the lesson :o)

The Millennium Diamonds

First off – I am my Father’s Daughter. He’d’ve loved watching this. Why?

Because all law-enforcement, at one time or another, HAS to put themselves into the shoes and the minds of the criminal.

The DOME was a disaster from start to finish. A Teflon Tony Baby.

Remember y2k and the END of the World?

I’d love to see this made into a film with Victor Meldrew, Rab C Nesbitt, Jonathan Creek, Father Ted, Lily Savage, Mrs Overall, Squidward and Ewan McGregor as Eye Candy :o)

The Myth of The Magdalene

Collecting my research together the other day showed me just how many books I have about Mary Magdalene.

Dan Brown has a lot to answer for.

First came the Holy Blood and the Holy Grail which suggested that Christ had married. That was decades ago. And this myth of The Magdalene has gone totally OTT.

We now have The Sacred Virgin & The Sacred Whore.

M M (once a sign for LUST and not some Freemason BS number)

Everyone knows(!?) that the Magdalene was a whore.

Shock Horror.

She, apparently, left the Holy Land after the death of her husband with lots of other Marys and landed in the South of France. Where she lived for 40 odd years in a cave, naked but for her floor length hair.

Surely that would be the END of the Holy Line. Yes? No?

What happened to the children? Where did they go? Did they grow up and marry and procreate?

There is a very strong suspicion in MY althistory world that the woman known as MM was the DAUGHTER, or even granddaughter, of “Christ.”

She went to the south of France to marry. But she was rejected by her husband and ended up marrying and having children with a Prince, later King, of Catalonia.

It’s ALL about family. Or else it means NOTHING.

Just saying :o)

The Filth & The Fury

There are many things that I love about John Lydon.

He’s an historian and a Shakespearean.

He’s a Gooner – supports Arsenal.

He blames himself for Sid Vicious’ death.

He spent many years caring for his late wife when she had dementia.

He KNOWS life is shit/hard/painful but still cracks on.

He outed Jimmy Saville years before anyone else.


I never did the safety pin, grunge, spit, foul-mouth (though I’m getting better at that) mohawk haircut thing BUT ONCE A PUNK …etc :o)

The Thursday Murder Club

I’d run out of audiobooks. Over 300 and most have been listened to at least twice – sometimes six times (ahem Bram Stoker!!)

So I wandered around itunes to find something NEW and refreshing.

I like Richard Osman. He was brilliant in the show Pointless. And he is tall. TALL!

But not as tall as I thought. 6ft 7ins? My boy is 6ft 6ins. But that’s beside any point aka pointless :o)

From Am a zon :

The first book in the number one best-selling, multi-million copy selling series by TV presenter Richard Osman.

Read by Lesley Manville, soon-to-be star of The Crown, and featuring an exclusive Q&A between Richard Osman and Marian Keyes.

In a peaceful retirement village, four unlikely friends meet up once a week to investigate unsolved killings.

But when a brutal killing takes place on their very doorstep, the Thursday Murder Club find themselves in the middle of their first live case.

Elizabeth, Joyce, Ibrahim and Ron, might be pushing 80, but they still have a few tricks up their sleeves.

Can our unorthodox but brilliant gang catch the killer before it’s too late?

CrimeFest Audible Sounds of Crime winner: Best Audiobook 2021.


I bought, downloaded and went to bed with Richard.

OK. I may need to start the entire book again because I became very confused, very quickly. Elizabeth and Joyce and Ibrahim and Ron and a boxer and a developer and a man called Bogdan and a young policewoman who wants to solve murders and a swimming pool and a convent and a priest and the Nun’s graveyard and a psychiatrist and a Detective Inspector who wants to go on a diet but keeps eating McDonalds and crisps and chocolate and needs a woman in his life and…….. Boggled was I.

I ended up falling asleep and having a dream where I’m digging up my own bones from the Nun’s graveyard.

Bizarre as effffff!

J’Accuse Youtube : Judge Jeffreys

OK. Rather than cite a thesis length article on The Hanging Judge for you all, I decided to find a half decent youtube video about this well-known, Infamous, man from British History. Who reminds me of so many people today. JUDGEMENTAL & UNFORGIVING.

Try yourself and see if any modern 3 second attention span can find anything approaching a history of this 17th century Judge.

I’ve chosen the best of the worst.

LOL. Love Most Haunted. They have single-handedly trashed any study of either history or the paranormal.

YAY…….not :o(


I love my country.

Yes. We are ALL weirdos. We thrive on being ECCENTRIC/STRANGE/SUBNORMAL (?!)

We drive on the WRONG right side of the road.

We have accents that are inpenetrable.

We eat ACTUAL REAL food.

We have roundabouts/manual cars/butchers/bakers/candlestick makers….OLD BUILDINGS that are NOT Tartarian.

We also have WEATHER. Lots of weather. Every day is different.

And we all speak like the Queen/King….ergo we are ALL the prototype Villain.


So why the heckity heck would any US of American EVER want to come here? We don’t even speak ENGLISH.


I know. Roundabouts are a tool of Satan. Just get over yourself and use forward observation :o)

Breaking Bad : The REAL CRIME

I made my husband watch this yesterday. Why?

He and both of my sons LOVED this series.

He even told me that he had no idea what “binge-watching” meant until this came a long.

I watched the first episode and then bailed out. Thanks but NO THANKS.

So we have a TV series much beloved by many. I was even given the old – but he was dying and wanted to help his family crap.

Sorry, my love. WATCH THIS and understand where some people will wilfully go to get SATISFACTION.

This world is not my world.

SMH and weep.

Truly Hidden History

What so many “truthers” have no knowledge about is the TRUE REASONS for all this jiggerpokery around HISTORY.

Yes. It touches on Tartaria. And Russia. And Fomenko’s Team in the New Chronology World.



Don’t even bother trying to search online for historical Jerusalem/Al-Quds. That has long been erased.

At the very heart of Fomenko’s work is a MAN. A REAL LIVING, BREATHING MAN who was crucified and his family hunted down. His brother was beheaded. His other family members scattered.

Upon this family lays a heavy burden that few are prepared to even look into.

What is the opium of the masses?


What brings the masses to bitter obedience?


What drives the masses?


What is being destroyed before our very eyes?


Why did it take one thousand years for Western Christians to Crusade against the East for vengeance?

It didn’t.

I will live and die by this FAITH of mine in a family that was once destroyed In Real Life and then repeatedly destroyed over the centuries.

So there.

BY THE WAY – my name is Jacquelyn. J IS and always was a real letter.


Mar Git aka Margate

My mother in law was born in Margate to a young girl, father unknown. M I L was taken at birth and fostered. Then adopted. She too gave birth aged 14 to a baby girl, father unknown…taken at birth, then…?

I’ve seen this PC name promoted so many times and he came up in my feed so I thought I’d watch.

ZION Place. Margate.

Secret mudflood.

OK. I live in a village a mile away from a town that is built upon a network of “roman” tunnels.

The “roman” tunnels are deep down. Covered by many coverings. My husband works for the local council on construction and is often filling in potholes.

What is a pot hole? Ask yourself.

Even in our tiny town, when the many levels of tarmac are effed and create a hole, we can see the Victorian cobbled street underneath. I’VE SEEN IT. I’ve talked to men who’ve walked the miles of tunnels beneath the Lincolnshire Wolds.

I live in a house, in a tiny village on a hill, with a level beneath us. The trap door to it was revealed when we lifted all the carpets. It’s so deep down that not a one of us has ever ventured there. FACT.

There is ZERO mystery.


Sorry, Paul but I call Own Goal.

The Smiling Rant

For me this is a little too little a little too late.

For others it is perfect.

I’ve no issues with Neil Oliver. Apart from on the historical timeline but that’s NOT his bad.

Neil Oliver – ‘…digital enslavement is coming…’

It’s been here for years, sweetheart. Digital Enslavement.

In my humble opinion, so much of the yt truther movement are using “facts” gained via films, games, TV and soi-disant BESTSELLER books.

So you see a film with two moons together, one of them with a perfect map of the earth on. Tahdah. Let’s make a video about how the “Elite/Phoenician/Bohemian Grove/RULERS have deceived us.


I’ve said this so many times because I’m also a casualty of my own choices.

I once chose to believe in someone who believed in playing games that were deliberately played to destroy one of us.


I’m not here to RULE THE WORLD. I’m here to protect those I love and care for.


Give A Dog A Bad Name &….!

No offence to the content creator . I’m just stating my opinion.

Based on decades of alt.research.

Gilles de Rais is not quite as well known as Vlad the Impaler or Elizabeth Bathory but his “history” has so many similarities.

Except ONE.

The Marshal de Rais was (so they say) one of Jehanne d’Arc’s closest friends. Her general. There is not ONE SINGLE quote from The Maid of France denouncing Gilles.

Which begs a question or several.

Was she NOT the mystic virgin who’d been told by God and the Angels to save France?

Or was she actually a real peasant on the grift?

If all is as we are taught then Jehanne and her comrades on campaign would have been in very close proximity to each for long periods of time.

And she NEVER suspected that he was the Devil Incarnate and a child molester/killer?

BTW : The name Rais comes up in 17th century French History. It’s then RETZ and belongs to priests of the Catholic Church.

Just saying :o)

Logic Bomb via UH

Yes. I watched t’other one. WTF is he on about? Tattoo of naked sister?

LOGIC Bomb here…..Life IS What YOU Make It.

There has been and always will be weather systems/good people/bad people/love/hatred/joy/bitterness/have/have not/dark/light/brave/coward….et al.

This is NOT a revelation. We all know it.

When people spend all their time looking into the bad/dark/destruction/conspiracy/manipulation/evil/those who HAVE/confusion/delusion…et al, you know exactly what type of person you are facing.

A sad and lonely and totally effed up soul. A soul that has no idea which way is up. A LOST SOUL.

Living is hard. It always was. Then & now. Just do the best you can and be grateful for the GOOD.

Newton’s 3rd Law? Cause & Effect?


The operative word being – YOU.


The Can of GREEN/BROWN Worms

This really goes way back before Dan Green and Dan Brown to The Holy Blood & The Holy Grail.

Wow. So much fame and fortune has been made from this.

I’ve been interested in “Dan Green” for a long time because of his links to Lincoln. And the Cathedral there.

Why? Well. Lincoln seems to have a special place in this whole thing.

Henry Lincoln.

The Da Vinci scenes filmed in Lincoln.

“Dan Green” living in Lincoln.

I have no qualms with what is now called “The Holy Bloodline.” It’s basic. Man meets woman. Gets jiggy. Child born.

My own research into the Magdalene led me down very different roads that seem to suggest the MSM’s fave Conspiracy Theory would make “Jesus” not only a child molester but incestuous. The common theme for today’s mind-set.


Anyway. Whatever.

P.S, I stopped listening to late night Radio (Luxemburg) when I was very young. I’m now old enough to value my sleep :o)


Nope. Never.

Not when you’ve made a prison of your own words and actions and choices.

Sorry but that’s the truth unless…

…you are willing to take ALL the crap and the punishments and the rollercoaster ride that comes thereafter.

Skipping the groove on the vinyl is very whiskey-in-the- jarring – O.

Takes balls, mon brave.

Dark Angel & Revisionist History

I’d been watching a “documentary” about Mary Ann Cotton and got very bored with all the salacious details. So I did a bit of my own research.

MAC is best known as Britain’s First Female Serial Killer. Juicy fodder, yes.

Then I recently found this TV drama series called Dark Angel. What made me sit up was the Distribution Company – Endemol Shine.

The same TV company that contacted me about making a TV Drama series from my book. All negotiations fell through when they learned that I owned ALL RIGHTS. I’d’ve cost them a bloody fortune in fees.

The beginning of this drama is so far away from any of the yt Real Crime docs about her.

She lost four children in four years – hence she was a murder. Go figure!

P.S. The women’s clothing is fascinating :o)

True Colours

The Beginning of “New Earth” was foreseen a long time ago.

The Age of Aquarius, anyone?

Sylvie from NEW EARTH chose her youtube name well. I’ve not been there for 3 years or so…SO…I have no idea where/how she developed her work.

WARNING : Incoming Rant.

For the Love of God.

We were all given a chance to make this life a better place but…!

Being the greedy, attention-deficit, easily manipulated, combative, ego-centric, power-hungry, money-grubbing species that we are – we effed it up. AGAIN!

Spiritual Warfare is now a CLICHE that many scoff at without realising that their morals/spirit/love/humanity is being attacked by many thousands of distractions every single minute of every single day.

We ARE the choices we make and True Colours ARE being seen.

Being “awake” or “woke” or “woken” has Sweet FA to do with seeing the evil that is being inflicted on us daily.

Being “awake” or “woke” or “woken” has EVERYTHING to do with being True and Honest and Kind and Understanding and Willing To Learn from our own mistakes.

Just my opinion. For what it’s NOT worth.

Vladimir Propp

I bought this book decades ago. A 1975 secondhand version for about a £1.

It’s served me well :o)

A first reading when right over my head, even though I knew about Grave’s White Goddess and Campbell’s The Hero’s Journey.

It’s worth all the brain-ache …in my humble opinion. Especially if you are a writer studying your art and your craft.


I’m all for clean air. FACT!

That’s why I live in the middle of not a very interesting place surrounded by fields. And farmers. And the strange smells that farmers make on their fields.

I’m also a bit of a petrol-head.

A silent car that runs on invisible juice from out of a plug is anathema to me.

Eco-mentalists/Eco-terrorists have a role to play.

Greta Tunaberger has a role to play.

I’m perfectly happy with my 20 year old car (George) and driving around at 30/40mph. Thank you.

P.S. Any faster than that on our country windy wiggly roads and George goes into the shakes and punishes us by drinking far too much petrol.


King Charles

OK. We have a King now.

I feel for Betty’s family. I know what it’s like to lose a mother…two grandmothers. It’s a lifelong trauma, no matter what age you are.


Charles has always been a loose cannon. His father despised him. His first wife wasn’t too keen on him either!

Laurens Van der Post, guru and philosopher, was the young prince’s mentor. And if you remember the scandals before “the divorce” Charles was (allegedly) phone-hacked and recorded telling Carmilla that he wanted to be her permanent tampax.

Oh. And he still needs help to face the day. Someone runs his bath. Someone places his towels out. Someone lays his clothes out. Someone dresses him. Someone places a cup of tea in his hand. Someone cuts the head orf his breakfast boiled egg. Someone opens doors for him……….!

Where are we heading now?

The Spear of Destiny vs The Spear of Longinus

I’ve spent too long doing this stuff. Just to have it all ripped apart by the “We Always Win” crew.

Nah. Not any more, mes braves.

Go back. Go way, way back to my posts from 2018/2019 when I tear the Romans apart. Especially Julius Caesar and all that crap.

HIS – story is real. It’s all HIS Story. When you dive deep into Fomenko and New Chronology and actually try to debunk them for over a decade. You’ll understand from whence I come.

Who drove a Spear into Christ’s side when he was on the cross?

And WHO one was of the killers of Julius Caesar?

Et tu Bruti?

Et tu Gaius Cassius Longinus?

And none of this has anything to do with Russia – the country as we know it today.

AEWAR has fallen down the same hole, methinks.

And yes. I’m overly sensitive right now. That’s the lot of a REAL EMPATH who FEELS every single knife/arrow/spear on their soul.

Apparently Herr A. Hitler was desperate to obtain the Spear of Destiny so that he could have magical power uber alles. And we all know how that ended. Follow a MYTH, disprove a myth.

NC postulates that the man known as Julius Caesar is a “reflection” of the myth known as “Jesus.”

I’m in my own private Circle of Hell chez Dante right now.

Or just keep on taking the piss out of me.

So over y’all :o)

P.S. Try looking into Wagner and Parsifal or Wolfram von Eschenbach’s Parzival or The Bleeding Spear of the Grail Castle or The Fisher King with his thigh stuck by a spear or Chiron the wounded or ? ? ?

Sick Building Syndrome

I’m a Brit.

I’m a TYPICAL Brit – as in, we always complain about the weather!

One of my own personal pet-hates is AC.

When he and I spend a night in a hotel anywhere in the world we have a constant fight.

Him : AC on full blast. Also the TV.

ME : Turn it all off.

Him : Shout and cuss and turn it all back on again.

And so on and so on.

I swear to God that AC, to me, means INSTANT ILLNESS. From blocked nose to thumping headache to sore throat to fatigue to full-blown flu.

When was the last time you saw a Bedouin on his camel humping (!?) around an AC unit?

AND – did you know that Bedouin and all other desert dwellers cover themselves from head to foot in either linen or WOOL?

OMG. How do they survive?

Don’t bother answering.

P.S. I have a huge fondness for the kind of bathing suit shown above. So much sexier than budgie smugglers :o)

Legionnaires’ disease, anyone?

Almost 50 Years Later : Anatoly Fomenko and Team.

So…SO Many people comment to yt truthers about reading the work of Fomenko to learn about chronology and how timelines have been tweaked.

I agree.

But there is just one New Chronology book that (in my humble opinion) will explain every single word of the many millions that have been written since the 1970’s by these people.

Tsar of the Slavs.

I came to youtube and the “Tartarian” “Truth” community after over a decade and three reads of this single book. I gave the very simple distillation of all that stuff via a single post of mine to Martin Liedtke at the beginning of January 2019. He featured it – at the time – but it’s been pulled from all of his channels.

Only someone LIKE me can appreciate the total mind-blowing conclusion reached in Tsar of the Slavs.

I’ve never been an atheist but I’m not religious. I have NO bias about “religion.”

I read this book from a view that I’d formed as a child… that the story of Jesus Christ was not quite right. To me he was always a fighter/soldier/warrior with incredible empathy and knowledge.

Jordan Tabov (an NC team member) disagrees with Fomenko’s original thesis that CHRIST was Andronicus I Comnenus. He told me that he placed our JESUS with Andronicus’s grand-children. In Trebizond…..where they were taken by their Aunt Tamar of Georgia after the crucifixion of their Grandfather in 1185.

Fomenko and the New Chronology Team (every single one of them) work from the clues that show us ALL that “Jesus Christ” was a living, breathing man born of a living, breathing woman.

This family were destroyed by their wider family for power and control. The original surviving family members fled north from Byzantium to save themselves. Their descendants ended up on the Russian Steppes in a place once called Tartaria.

What did Marx say about opiates?


Is there a single mention of bricks or antiquitech or free energy or anyotherBS currently taught via youtube in a single word written above?

Tsar of the Slavs brought me back to MY faith. MY reason for living. MY life.

Promised you a miracle?

To this very day not a single one of the them has had the BALLS to even approach this facet of HIDDEN HISTORY.

Apart from me :o)

Worse Than What Is Being Derided.



For yet another yt content creator and self-professed TRUTHER and TEACHER to show such disrespect – not only to the English Language but also to his peers in such a nose-in-the-air fashion has cemented my decision to leave the past 3/4 extremely painful years was behind me.

3 years ago I called a SCHISM in the community. Today it’s right in front of our eyes.

SPECULATION : the forming of a theory or conjecture without firm evidence.

Without FIRM evidence is exactly what these people are forever bumping their gums about when they talk of the controllers/elites/masons/government/others/masses/sheeple etc.

There are those who not only believe this “speculation” but who are now actively teaching their children the exact same stuff.

Who the bloody hell is going to stand up and SHOUT ABOUT the sheer irresponsibility of all this shit that’s called the “youtube truther” community?

Oh. That’ll be just me then :o(

The Copper’s Hunch

The Copper’s Hunch is a phrase amongst many that describes your own intuition/instinct/experience.

Gut Reaction. Just a Feeling.

I trained as a Military Cop and my Dad was Special Branch in his later life.

When you KNOW. You Know.

Right from the get-go I KNEW that youtube was NOT for me.

I’ve made 3 yt videos. One with my dog and the crow we rescued and two of my garden. End of.

Way back when I was banned from yt “truther” channels for calling out their Harem Garage Groupies as FAKE. Y’know the ones that are Always There. Never miss a chance to use their Monkeewrench in a live chat. Are recognised the world over.

Good luck to them all – say I. But yt will never be MY medium.


Sometimes that little voice inside can save your life. Fact!

The Cult of Mithras

I’m an Historian. I learned about the MSHist of this decades ago.
Recent stuff has interfered with my sleep ( makes me antsy?!) and this is about the 3rd week listening to Phil Rickman’s Merrily book The Secrets of Pain.


Because it’s slightly painful and NOT relaxing.

He goes deep, deep, deep into Mithraism as practised by the “Romans” and connects the whole myth with the SAS. Mithras was the SOLDIER’S GOD. And blood was his everything

The murderee is called Mansell BULL who is slaughtered in his own farmyard and the murderer is seen running away, covered in blood

He has a brother called Solus Bull who is tupping D.I Frannie Bliss’s estranged wife and is a popular media hero.

I call BULL shit on this Blood CULT :o)

The Destruction Caused by The “WOKE” Brigade

And yes – there has been a lot of improvement in certain areas in the past decade or two but…

…Nowhere nearly enough GOOD PROGRESS to silence the newly “woke.”

I grew up in a family of 5 very strong personalities. Each of us with a different point of view. Sometimes it descended in GBH (BAD) but it taught us all how to stand up and argue for ourselves (GOOD)

But today….shake my head and weep … today we are hog-tied into apologising for our own thoughts, feelings, emotions, perspective etc just in case we UPSET someone somewhere.

I feel that this “someone, somewhere” (?!) has implemented an unwritten and invisible LAW to silence all & everyone who disagrees with anyone.

Once upon a time we were allowed to state our thoughts – for better or worse. Do schools not do debating anymore? Is the Greek staple of rhetoric dead? Has every single brain in the world stopped working?

P.S. I have never watched the film The Matrix. But MATRIX is now a buzzy buzz word and I ain’t plugged into no one else’s grid. Thank you and goodnight.

Methane vs Inthane

We have no gas in our village. Maybe laying pipes uphill was too difficult. Who knows?

There is a trick though – you dig a very big hole in your garden, plant a massive iron tank and get deliveries of Calor Gas every few weeks.

Calor gas:


  1. liquefied butane stored under pressure in portable containers, used domestically as a substitute for mains gas and in camping as a portable fuel.”It is a three-wheeler Mini, and it originally ran on petrol or Calor gas.”

Mmmn. Exploding potatoes or pigeons or sparrows come to my mind.

Side Note : I love my oil-fired Rayburn. It heats the house and the water and cooks 24/7 – when we can afford the kerosene to fill a 1000 litre tank. At the mo’ it’s around £600 for 500 litres. I’ve searched the sofas for lost £1 coins and came up around £599 too short :o(

I’ve always preferred a gas oven top and grill. Instant heat.

How about Supernatural Gas?

Yay :o)

Baleen NOT Whalebone

We’ve all heard of whalebone corsets, yes?

This is a misnomer. Moby Dick et al were hunted for their cartilage, not their bones.

I have never made a corset/stay before so have never had to use any kind of slim, flexible, robust bodice shaper.

Today we use plastic. Go figure. Some thrifty sewers even use zip ties…Note to Self #cheap.

I’ve gone for 5 metres of plastic. A further round of research may reveal a better, more friendly, modern alternative to baleen. Or plastic. Yes?

Pooh, Filth, Pooh….GERMS

This programme started in 2013. I’d never watched it at the time and I’m only watching it now for research.


2020 -2022 was a GERMOPHOBE’S idea of heaven.

Every effing thing had to be wrapped or sanitised or distanced or obsessed about.

I’m not being cruel. OCD is difficult to live with. Germophobia must be a freaking nightmare on steroids times millions.

Always the extremes on TV. Never a happy balance.

Just my opinion but – I worry about the children of these people. To grow up in a sterile environment must surely mean that their immune systems are non-active.

Like I know. Shrug.

Thin Line. Between Love & Hate

This is maybe, about, probably, the 4th time I’ve posted this song since 2018.

Chrissie Hynde has a VERY distinctive voice. I grew up with it. Can spot it in an instant.

Music & Mental Health.

Y’all can posit about how EVIL song lyrics are or you can gain wisdom from them.

In the heat of an argument we do actually HATE our combatant.

With whom have your biggest, most disgusting, most vile arguments been with?

I grew up thinking that my mother was my greatest enemy. That we HATED each other.

Now I know just how much we LOVED each other. WE were just different people from different generations with different lives and different points of view.

Your child NEVER belongs to you.

As a woman we learn that 9 months of discomfort and few hours of the worst pain EVER does not make that baby YOURS. Cut the cord. Release the child. And LOVE every ounce of him/her. Despite your differences. He/she is not you. And he/she is not the father. You and he (DAD) had a few minutes of sweaty jerking pokey action and a second or two of intense pleasure.

He/she is A NEW LIFE.

Thin Line between making and owning ?

Secrets of Pain vs Richard Dawkins

I’ve done my best to promote Phil Rickman’s Merrily books.

They are long and convoluted and revolve around a mother who is an Anglican Vicar and a daughter who is Pagan and their lives together in a village called Ledwardine.

Sounds boring? Nah. Rickman is one of the best “character” writers I’ve ever come across.

So many stand outs. Lucy Devenish dies very early in the series but she’s always there.

Gomer Parry – Plant Hire. Gomer is over 80 years old and will do all and anything to protect young Jane.

Lol )Laurence Robinson( one of Jane’s best friends, a shy and haunted folk singer/song writer who becomes Merrily’s lover and greatest love. And who now lives in the late Lucy Devenish’s cottage.

Barry – ex-SAS who is Landlord of the Swan pub and key player in this story about retired SAS soldiers.

And the wonderful DI Franny Bliss. Liverpudlian, lapsed Catholic incomer to the West Mercia Police Force.

I’m on my third go around with Secrets of Pain. Shit. How did I miss so much on the other two reads? ? ?

Merrily is having nightmares about Richard Dawkins. Even she thinks that she’s wasting her time propping up an archaic institution that is now more political than Christian.

BTW – Merrily is a Deliverance Minister aka Exorcist for the Diocese of Hereford. She KNOWS that there are more things in Heaven and on Earth than are dreamt of in our philosophy, Horatio.

I may not be a Churchian or a Bible-tarian. But I have a deep and unmoving faith in the knowledge that WE are not the be all and end all of everything.

I don’t do “science” either. As my exams results say :o)

P.S. The audiobook has music. Lol singing the songs he’s written………!

A Subject That I Have Never Talked About Because…

…To me it’s all bunkam and baloney.

I mean. REALLY? Ancient Advanced Aliens (or Nephilim) impregnating human females (Nephilim) and creating a race of super-duper hybrid humans. About 65 squillion eons ago.

I’d like to say that I’m being sarcastic here. But I’m not. I’m being serious.


Nor am I a Bible-tarian. Christian by ancestry but neither a churchian nor a sheep.

The Minotaur? OMG. Myth and Legend are metaphors/allegories/fables/fantastical tales to teach us all about the human condition.

As for Atlantis. I’ll shut up and move on to more grounded subjects. Like hoovering the house :o)